celaru

2nd MASTER @ PHD?

 i know where my heart desire. but... hmm. under confusion mode. 

ambitious me

someone said that i'll try to get what i want by hook or by crook

this is not only about what i want

it's all about what i need too

ambitious

it makes me determined

this is about my life

my self

if i don't get it nobody would give it to me

be realistic

know what u should do

planning

and go to your heart desire

do in the name of Allah

and 

His bless will always be with u

.InsyaAllah.

Nota: this is me (^_*) IRMR

tidak kan pernah sama

bahagia tiap orang itu tidak sama

bahagia nya kamu hari ini dengan apa ada nya kamu

tidak bererti bahagia bagi orang lain

berbeza

maka jangan kamu fikir kamu bahagia dan mereka juga bahagia

tolong fahami

kita berbeza

love

 

 

then u know how to choose right?

my new LIST

 

1) email Prof

 

 

 

2) apply scholarship

 

 

3) focus on my TOEFL/IELTS test

 

 

 

4) waiting reply and feedback from all prof and scholarship

 

 

 

5) then, only thinking which university will I go...

 

 

 

but the most important at the END is my PhD'

 

 

 

wish myself  ALL THE BEST

.Amin.

 

 

 

Nota: setiap tahun wajib travel oversea. erkkk... kira list baru jugak ke ni??? hohoi.

oit dah lame x men menda alah nih + entry terpanjang

Haa.. let choose... by 1 time look and quick pick. I choose no.6....

why?

because I just love the tree and I realize everytime I draw, the tree will look like that! haha

don't want to trust??

let see..

 

kan almost same tu..

dah lame x men menda alah ni

alahai permainan muda remaja

haha

beli majalah Remaja

cari halaman merapek camni, then mula lah with few friend dok memilih2

hahaha

budak hostel kan

6. You are kind and sensitive. People relate to you very well. You have many friends and you love helping them. You have this warm and bright aura that makes people feel good when they are around you. Every day, you think about what you can do to improve yourself. You want to be interesting, insightful and unique. More than anybody else in the world, you need to love. You are even ready to love those who don't love you back. 

 

kind...sensitive..many friend = yes. warm & bright aura.. haa. all of that must ask people surround me.. but I have to admit with the red color bold. hahaha... how i'm gonna be better everyday and most unique. As I can remember, when I was in form 3.. my face was mark with cutie fancy handyplast. WHY?? sebab naik je jerawat batu, terus tampal handyplast. malu konon terbojol. dah la umur time tuh jerawat batu dengan galak dan jaya nya sedang bermaharajalela. betepek je. jangan kata cukai Tanah, tol pun x bayar. main terjah je. sib bek datang nya solo x pernah berkumpulan .fuh selamat.. maka hasil nya hari ini ak CUN!

but

it doesn't stop that day. as I grown up, I keep wanna be the most unique from the other..taraaa..

picture taken at perhentian island just last september (1 sept 2013)..

I think people will know which is mine.. hahaha..

bab improve my self tu.. true la.. since I was in high school I had a dream which I wanna get my Master (Msc.) before I turn 29. Alhamdulillah I made it. InsyaAllah this 29th Oct 2013 is my convocation day. am I happy?? not really.. sebab I'm determined person. I wanna get my PhD! then I maybe la satisfied but not fully sebab another dream is I wanna be a lecturer. hihi.. kalau x dapat jadi tenaga pengajar. alamatnya jadi tenaga pengajar kat rumah la.. ajar anak2..ok la tuh. surirumah tangga ber PhD...hahaha..

haa. hamek hadap jawapan yang lain plak.. tapi dengan syarat jangan "PECAYO"

1. You are a generous and moral (not to confuse with moralizing) person. You always work on self-improvement. You are very ambitious and have very high standards. People might think that communicating with you is difficult, but for you, it isn't easy to be who you are. You work very hard but you are not in the least selfish. You work because you want to improve the world. You have a great capacity to love people until they hurt you. But even after they do. . . you keep loving. Very few people can appreciate everything you do as well as you deserve.

 

2. You are a fun, honest person. You are very responsible and like taking care of others. You believe in putting in an honest day's work and accept many work-related responsibilities. You have a very good personality and people come to trust you easily. You are bright, witty and fast-thinking. You always have an interesting story to tell.

 

3.You are a smart and thoughtful person. You are a great thinker. Your thoughts and ideas are the most important. You like to think about your theories and views alone. You are an introvert. You get along with those who likes to think and learn. You spend a lot of time, thinking about morality. You are trying to do what is right, even if the majority of society does not agree with you.

 

4. You are perceptive and philosophical person. You are a unique, one soul of your kind. Next to you there's no one even slightly similar to you. You are intuitive and a bit quirky. You are often misunderstood, and it hurts you. You need personal space. Your creativity needs to be developed, it requires respect of others. You are a person who clearly sees the light and dark sides of life. You are very emotional.

 

5. You are self-assured and in charge. You are very independent. Your guiding principle in life is 'I'll do it my way.'. You are very self-reliant and know how to stay strong for yourself and the people you Love. You know exactly what you want and are not afraid of pursuing your dreams. The only thing you demand from people is honesty. You are strong enough to accept the truth. 

 

6. kek ateh nuh..

 

7. You are happy and unflappable. You are a very sensitive and understanding person. You are a great listener who know how to be non-judgmental. You believe that everybody has their own journey in life. You are open to new people and events. You are highly resistant to stress and rarely worry. Normally, you are very relaxed. You always manage to have a good time and never lose your way.

 

 8. You are charming and energetic. You are a fun person who knows how to make people laugh. You live in a state of harmony with the universe. You are spontaneous and enthusiastic. You never say no to an adventure. Often, you end up surprising and even shocking people. But that's just how you are. . . You always remain true to yourself. You have many interests and if something proves of interest to you, you will not rest until you acquire a profound knowledge of this area.

 

 9. You are optimistic and lucky. You believe that life is a gift and you try to achieve as much as possible and put this gift to the best use possible. You are very proud of your achievements. You are ready to stick by the people you care about through thick and thin. You have a very healthy approach to life.

Nak!!!

CAMERA

I need new smartphone with superb camera

or

I need a camera itself

 

haish. padan muka to diri sendiri sebab xda camera. I just loss the beautiful thing and moment to be capture. sob. sob. sob. sedih uke!

 

but someone keep telling me

"sometime the most beautiful thing is not to be capture only but to be keep and remain in ur heart forever"

" and I do choose to keep it in heart"

 

ok. ini ayat memujuk ke ape nih

'psyco'

hahahaha

but I do love it

and I think that was true

frankly speaking

 

So far about camera i'm not yet started searching.. ekeke.. but sekarang punye impian adalah nak dapatkan Sony Xperia Z1.. apsal?? sebab yang ni kira mampu milik lagi degan features yang superb.. see 20.7mp. Smartphone Attachable Lens-style Camera DSC-QX100... malas nak cakap la.. hahahaha.
bukan jiwa DSLR dah mati. tapi I need some more compatible thing. yang compact tapi superbbbb!!!
senang nk sumbat masuk kocek.. ngeh..ngeh.ngeh..

so pilihan kene bijak. sebab ak tahu. ak ni jenis pakai sampai jahanam. selagi x jahanam, xda makna ak nak tukar. kluar lah tahap gaban punye canggih pun.
=_="
this is real miellmellina

tunggu

tunggu lah kalau kau rasa ada nya terindah untuk kau dan dia

sebab yang rasa suka baik duka adalah kau dan dia

impian

 

 

 

PRIVACY    SIMPLE     CLOSED     IMPORTANT   MEMORABLE

 

This is what I want

can u accept that?

DONE

MASTER

setahun yang penuh kegilaan

kerja.

kelas.

outstation.

assignment.

THESIS
 

ok. DONE

 

Alhamdulillah ALLAH

aku cinta KAMU

 

psss.. PhD

tunggu aku datang

 

 

Nota: Moga hari esok lebih indah dari semalam. Amin.



(+_+)

i want to married 

" but "

i'm not ready yet to married

serious cik miell???
hoh"
(+_+)"

Ya Allah

ku tahu

Kamu sentiasa ada di sisi ku

Kamu yang sentiasa akan ada

tapi aku mohon

kekalkan

bahagia ku itu

kekuatan ku itu

tiada kata

We Never Know 
Why We Like Someone More Than Others...
Why We Love Someone Without Any Reason...
Why We Feel Happy Thinking About Their Presence...
Because...
Some Feelings Has No Explanation or Definition..
There's no any word could be describe..
How unique Allah gives us this thing
could not be imagine
it just a great gift
thanks Allah
I LOVE U!

rahsia hati

keputusan
ak mahu memutus nya
tapi ak tahu ada rintangan nya
andai mampu
ku mahu hamparkan apa rahsia hati ini
kalau gagal
let it be
let me say to my self, that's mistake is by me
kerana apa
ak tidak mahu kamu merana di atas keputusan kamu untuk ku

mengertilah

ak x plukan teman yang sentiasa memapah ku tiap kali ak jatuh
ckup sekadar ada di sisi
yang lebih bernilai
adalah memberi ak semangat tika ka jatuh
mendorong ku untuk kembali bangun
agar ak tidak lagi takut untuk terjatuh di lain kali

s.a.y.a.n.g

ak sayang kamu
TAPI
sayang itu ada batas nya

Cinta ini

Kasih ini

Sayang ini

Mati sudah dalam jiwaku

ini bukan ukuran nya

harta

mahar

hantaran

ini bukan ukuran nya

rumah

kereta

kerjaya

paras rupa

ini bukan juga ukuran nya

apa nilai ukuran nya?

agama

ilmu

kematangan

keperibadian

itu yang di perlukan dalam membina sebuah bahtera kehidupan

ku hanya mahu redha mu Ya Allah

ku hanya mahu barakah mu Ya Ilahi

ku hanya mahu kasih dan cinta mu Ya Rahman

agar setiap perjalanan ku di bawah lembayung rahmat mu Ya Tuhan ku

ku bukan sempurna

telah ku katakn
ku bukan makhluk sempurna
ku bukan wanita teragung
ku bukan teman terhebat
tp
ku manusia biasa
ku wanita yang punya kekurangan
ku teman yang punya nakal nya
dan
kerana kekurangan ini ku mahu menjadi lebih baik dari semalam
maaf ,
ku tahu tidak layak
kerna
.ku tidak pernah sempurna.

ini untuk KAMU